I think it's
like a mandatory for everyone to have at least one resolution for new year,
isn't it? For a linear person like me, a resolution or wish list or whatever
you might called it, is a must. I need to list down what I should accomplish
during a year, break it down in weekly or monthly details. I wrote some, I
think I will write more.
2015, however, was
very pretty and almost smooth. I have more friends, experiences, jobs, salaries
(of course). Hmm, a year of big responsibility it is. Each months filled with
highlight moments, mixed with slight conflict of mind and heart for sure. This
one, I called as maturization. Some big events happened last year. Enrolled in
MUN activity, organization, had chance to do internship in one of biggest
national governmental office, chosen to involve in international events, and I
turned 21. I can say, I am happy with that. But big responsibility doesn't come
easy. 2015 taught me that as a twenty-something, what I decide will really
depend on myself and could heavily affect my life. I made several decisions.
Some of them made me happy, some not. Most of them brought lessons to me.
I learned so many
things from people I met last year. I engage in more deep conversation than in
2014. The talk is going mature and serious that it contains about further
education, carrier, start a new family, move to big city, salary. Sigh. Yea I
was bit tired to talk about those future stuffs. But then, 2015 really taught
me positive things. 2015 brought me to some people that unexpectedly become my
biggest trash, literally, I throw every emotion -from positive to negative- to
them. Ya Lord please make them stay by my side. In 2015, I learned to adapt in a
very new situation which requires me to listen more and more, that I do not
live alone and I should respect and understand people around me. For this one,
I specifically thank to Mr.Sandy that found my weakness in empathy and suggest
me several things I could do to enhance it. I guess I should be seeing
psychologist more often. In 2015 I also learn something about friendship. This
one is actually very hard to write. In a very big circle of friends I called as
friendship, I can count who my real best are with my fingers. However, in the
end of 2015 I still bit confused on how to call someone as best friend properly
and feel quite sad that, in fact, I don't really have best girlfriend that I
think I am that bad. Never mind. In relation to relationship, 2015 also be the
year that I believe a commitment is a sacred decision. I think I still too
selfish to commit with someone.
I am glad that 2015
end. 2015 was not perfect because I still haven't checked two points, but God
was very good to me last year. May He always bless and guide me. Aamiin. This
year, I am going to be 22. I wrote some resolutions I want to achieve that I
realize, it becomes more specific and fewer than previous years. From all
points I wrote down, I really want two things for a merrier year, 2016: my
graduation and settled in a job. I cannot wait to work for realizing those
dreams. I cannot wait to write a gratitude for next year. 2016, be merry!
